News Section Editor Beth Nicholls explores the painful loss of past friendships and carrying the weight of those memories.
I have spent the majority of my life in [redacted suburb] of Western Sydney, it’s where my roots are firmly grounded. Most of my close friends and connections have been formed there. And now I feel as if my roots are starting to uplift and the friends I’ve made are crumbling and getting lost in the ground beneath me.
People come and go in your life, it’s just something you have to accept. I have made many close friends from many places – online, dancing, university, high school, a
nd they aren’t all going to be with me forever. How do you come to terms with that? That you got to know someone, and then one day you won’t know them anymore, no matter if you were really close or just friends in passing. They were someone you knew and then suddenly that bond is no more.
You might try to stay in contact on social media, but it never works out the way you planned. Instead you sit there scrolling, coming across their life updates, a life you are no longer a part of. You still have the privilege of seeing these parts of their life, but it stings because you are an outsider looking in, feeling ever so disconnected.
How do you live with that? How do you move on?
I feel haunted by the people I’ve known in my life, one’s who I no longer have close to me. And I miss you, and the door is open if you ever feel like returning, because sometimes the pain is too much to carry.
And maybe we’ll find each other in our next lives, but now we are destined to spend it eternally apart unless the universe decides otherwise.
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